To you.
Yes you.
The one who is anonymously reading this post and not informing me. This post is for you.
I do not know if I should refer to you as my husband or my boyfriend or my best friend or my soulmate. But irrespective of whatever 'adjective' I attach with you, you will always be the one with the 'Midas Touch', the one who turned my heart into gold. You will always be the one who made me realize that there is magic inside me only if I chose to believe in it.
In the past decades, I have always wondered what is the meaning of true love. Is it about the superficial things that we watch in Bollywood Cinema? Mid night Valentine Cakes, Dinner at Fancy restaurants, rich celebrations and jewelry, Facebook relationship updates? Or is it about being 24 * 7 glued to the other person but not connecting at all? Is it about gifting expensive watches but not being able to give the other person five minutes in a day? What is love? And why is love always given an extravagant yet narrow definition? Why has the definition of love reduced to mere one-night stands in this generation? There were just so many questions. But the most important question was whether I will be lucky enough to find my "One True Love"?
I found my answer when I had given up hope and when I least expected to find any answer. It was probably the March of 2017 when I spoke to him for the first time. Little did I know how important you will be in my life. I don't know when exactly I realized that you are the definition that I was searching for in life, in books, in experiences, in myself. I do not remember the exact minute or the day or the year even. I do not remember anything. Except that feeling. The feeling that warmed me from within. Was it the first time I held your hand? Or is it each time that I hold your hand? Or was it the first time when you got angry with me and I felt real pain? Or was it that time when I got really jealous when I saw you talk to that xyz girl? Maybe it was that time when I said many mean things to you and cried the entire night wanting you? Or was it the time you hugged me with that broken arm in front of "Yummies Dhaba"? Or was it that time when you wrote me love letters because words were just not enough? I am not sure. There are just too many instances. Too many fond memories that I would never exchange for any riches in the world.
And I guess I have finally found my answer. In you. I realized that love is not a perfect, short-term process. Love means a lifelong friendship where two individuals respect each other and never get bored of each other. Even though it means silently lying down and watching cricket or Tarak Mehta shows. With the right person, love has no expiry date. With the right person, love does not have any place for ego or self-doubt. I also realized that real love involves constant efforts and a realization that one is just incomplete without the other. Love also made me realise that no matter how hard we fight, at the end of the day I always want you and I guess that is why I have trouble sleeping whenever I fight with you. True love also involves a lot of fights and arguments because we tend to care an inch more for our special one and that just makes the bond stronger, We fight because we care. Love also takes into account how you take care of the other person after you are done with the fight. Love does not mean fancy things. It means a long drive, a cup of hot coffee and some quality time with your better half.
I have found love in a road-side fried momo date with you. I have found love in those chicken meals that you have cooked for me. I have felt that love when you have called me almost thousand times a day just to know where I am and how I am doing. I saw love in your eyes when you cried for Jeet in that hospital room. I have found love in your honesty, dedication and possessiveness that you have towards me. Some days I only wish I could be half of what you have been to me. I just wish! But I jut want all of you reading this and especially YOU, that please you guys wait for the right person. Please don't end up associating he definition of love with any fancy things. Love is a serious and unending companionship till death do us part. But in my case, we have promised to stay with each other even after death, truly, madly and deeply in love.
My love. You are mine. Now and always.
Ishu.